I’ve always been a particularly good Mercy player. It seemed odd to me because my standard playstyle is all-or-nothing dive dps.

Eventually I realized that I was aggressively attacking my teammates with healing. Subconsciously I think I see myself as on my own separate third team, and I’m blitzing them like a Genji and destroying their weakness before they can purposely commit suicide. When they all survive, it’s because I successfully thwarted my own team in their efforts to die.